Sometimes

Sometimes....................

...... I let my M have a sugary treat before dinner!

.................... I let her M stay up as late as she wants.  She's bound to get tired sometime, right!?!

.................. I swear in front of M and pray that this is not the time she decides to copy what I say.

....................... I kiss her cute little face for 5 minutes straight.  I gotta take advantage while I can.

............. I get sad when I think of the day that M says she hates me.

........................  I dream about putting M in a big bubble to keep her safe from this crazy world.

................ I wish I became a mother sooner when I was young and had more energy.

......................  I sneak M some cookie dough when baking cookies, it tastes SO yummy!!

............ I want to move to the Amish country and escape this crazy, fast-paced society!

................ I have to pinch myself to make sure that M is not just a dream come true!

.......... I can't thank God enough for giving me the blessing of being M's mommy.

............... I feel like a failure.

...................... I know that I am doing the best I can and that has to be good enough.

............ as a mom I feel so alone and wonder if all the mom's are hanging out without me.

But I always, always know how lucky I am. Always.