SICK!!!

There is nothing more, in my book, that makes you feel like a Mediocre of a Mommy then having to care for a sick child.  Last week my daughter got sick, I mean really sick, for the first time ever.  I knew how blessed I was and especially know how blessed I truly am to have a healthy child!  That was the absolute worst thing!!

Of course it was on a Monday that M got sick.  I could tell she wasn't herself when I woke her up, but I thought it was her teeth that were bugging her and I dropped her off at my Grandma's since Michael was working. It was a typical busy Monday and I had an afternoon meeting that I was in for over an hour, came back to my office and had a message to call my Grandma A.S.A.P. - my heart raced.  I called my Grandma and she said "Your baby is really sick! She is throwing up!"  Well I started crying and flew out the door of work.  Luckily my bosses seemed pretty understanding.  It seemed like the longest drive to get to my baby!  When I arrived she was just sitting in my Grandma's lap with her big beautiful eyes full of tears.  She didn't smile or even move when I arrived. She just sat there and stared at me, it was heart breaking!

Well I took her to the doctor and felt so bad for her having to be checked and prodded when she had a fever of 104 and all she wanted to do was go home, cuddle and watch cartoons.  I don't feel like a total Mediocre of a Mom just yet, but it's coming.

We finally get home after an hour and a half at the doctor's.  I did everything the doctor said but added lots of extra love. Well just around bedtime M got a burst of energy and was acting 1,000% better and I even said to Michael, "so I guess I can go to work tomorrow!"  He said that it could come back - whatever!!  Well he was right, it did come back.  I checked on M at 3:30 a.m. and she was on FIRE!!  Then I couldn't go back to sleep on debating whether or not to wake her up to give her meds or what.  Ok so I felt helpless right about then and pretty much Mediocre.

I let M continue sleeping until she woke up naturally.  She was still on fire.  I called into work for the next two days to care for M.  My days would have been easier going to work.  M just wanted to be held and I loved holding M, but it made it challenging to use the restroom, get a drink or make meals and bottles.   Needless to say I didn't shower for 2 days!!

M's fever finally broke at around 4:30 a.m. Wednesday morning. Poor girl!  She was sleeping on my chest that night and she was a little heater, but I could tell right when it went away as we both immediately cooled down.

I am SOOOOO thankful to have an exceptional healthy, beautiful baby,  I am thankful to have a job where I have health benefits and paid time off to care for my child, I am thankful to have such a wonderful mother and Grandmother that are always so willing to help, I am thankful to have a supportive and helpful partner and with out all of these things I would have felt much less than Mediocre.  

I never want my daughter to get sick again!

Saddest. Thing. Ever.